なんとなくなる

It seems forever eversince my last entry... Somehow I just couldn't find the time to blog about my Golden week trip, my schools' sports day, HIRA BBQ, my reunion with Sekine-san & family, last school vists, my farewell parties, short Akita trip & my most recent Hokkaido trip with Pa & Ma. These 2 months plus flew pass so quickly... Especially the month of July. I was so busy with work and preparing farewell speeches and notes & gifts, that I hardly slept every night. Will catch up soon on the past events....

But now, just wanna pen down my current thoughts....

I'm packing my bags to go home. Of course I'm also busy with the cleaning of my apartment! I've finally emptied my wardrobe & cupboards and sealed the last 2 boxes today. Lookin at my empty apartment now, a sudden urge of sadness overwhelmed me. This place is where I've called home for the past year. Nobody ever said relocation was easy. I remember looking at this apartment strangely for the first few days in Japan. De ja vu... Suddenly I feel as if I've been transported back to the first day when I stepped into the apartment. It was just like this, bare and foreign. I wondered then if I can make this place my home... or rather, I decided to make it homely & welcoming. Well, in the end, it did become my home, with lots of help from the 100yen shops near my place! For the first time in my life, I stayed by myself & made a foreign place close to my heart. Now it's time to let go of all these, but I just cannot bear to do so...

Don't really know how to describe my feelings now.... I'll definitely miss this place, the people, my friends and my job....

I'll miss everything here. I know that. Cos' I'm already missing them now.